my 2nd...

How time flies... Last February, I discovered I was pregnant... Now, 1st of October it is... my 2nd child was born.  I was so happy... everybody was too!

Let me tell you my journey...

I, at the back of my mind wanted another baby.  So, I was planning to go on diet and have an exercise regimen.  This was deciphered in my mind early December of 2011.  But as days passed none of those two regimen were put to practice.  Well, anyway I still don't have the will power to do it.

Came February, my hubby told me that I might be pregnant.  So I took a PT kit and rest was history... the birds and the bees... hey I was pregnant!  I immediately went to my OBGYNE and I told her my pregnancy history... that I had 3 miscarriage after my first born... and i'm pregnant again... my 5th pregnancy at the age of 37.  She lay her cards... one day at a time, she said. My OB GYNE gave me medicines to keep my uterus strong... vitamins for the baby... and test to make me healthy for the baby.

After a 39 weeks my baby was born October 1, 2012 via ceasarian section because a meconium stain was seen when my water broke. She was named KAEYLA DJERDIN RAMIREZ DELOS REYES.  Her second name was a combination of the named of her 2 grandfathers... JER for Jeremias (My hubby's dad) and DIN from Dindo (My father's pet name).

My family is complete... I have a husband who I know loves me very much , a Son who is mabait and malambing, and now a daughter who I wish will grow up God fearing and very loving to her family.

Thank you God for all the blessings... thank you for my family... what more can I ask?

Girl or Boy ?

I will have my monthly OBGYNE checkup tomorrow... I will be having my biometry and if possible then the gender of my child will be revealed... Excited, yup I am... I want to know if it's a girl or boy... Actually this is only a confirmation... When I had my ultrasound last end of April, my doctor told me that it is a girl pero malabo pa yung ultrasound because the baby still is small. Now that I am entering my sixth month, the gender of my child can now be seen... If and only if my child wont hide it... So baby, let mommy know if you're a girl or a boy so I can prepare your things before you come out in this beautiful world...

How time flies...

When you view my previous blog... There was one titled " looking forward "... I made maybe 4 or 5 lists of what I look forward for 2012... One of which is trying to have a baby... Maybe God saw and read what I wrote... Maybe He evaluated my life and saw that I only have one child and that child wants to have a sibling... So that is why I am now 22 and a half weeks pregnant... That is almost 6 months... And that is why we are very happy and everybody is trying very hard to keep my pregnancy safe. This is due to my previous unfortunate experience... But I moved forward so this time it will be fine. Thank you Lord for this blessings... See you after nine months baby... That is 3 more months to go... Can't wait!!!

Fear factor...

I am almost on my 6th month of pregnancy... Some think that I am on the safer stage now. But still there is a fear inside me... I don't want to say it but I am nervous and a little bit worried everyday. What if this happen... What if I... Too many what ifs... When I wake up in the morning and before I go to sleep at night, I read the Bible and pray to thank the Lord for all the blessings and guidance for a safe And healthy pregnancy. Praying is a powerful tool to overcome this fear that I am feeling... To let go of all the worries that throb my head... And telling myself that everthing will be fine. Thank you Lord for each day...

Grade Four...

Yup my little boy is now a grade 4 student... Binata na... He is now wearing long pants, polo and necktie... A required uniform for the fourth graders... Eventhough it's just the first week of class, my kid has lots of assignments and requirements to bring for his class. I hope this year will be a great year for my little boy academically...

Day 3 ...

Day 3 was when we went to the hospital for our first prenatal check-up... We decided that if my cousin who is an OBGYNE was available then she will be my OB... but she was out of the country for a convention... so we decided to go to my 1st OBGYNE... Dra. Emma...

When I entered the hospital my heart pounded... excited, happy , nervous were the emotions I felt that time.   When my OB first checked on me, I told her my pregnancy history... she then wanted me to have an trans-vaginal ultrasound to know how many weeks is my pregnancy since I do not know my LMP (irregular kse eh). Yup! I was 4-1/2 weeks pregnant.  She then lay down the cards on me... the pros and cons... the advantages and disadvantages... the risks... this is because of my previous pregnancy history. She gave me prescriptions like, Utrogestan, progesterone vaginal gel, folic acid and aspirin (due to her suspicion of APAs). This was taken up to 3 months of pregnancy to help in formation of the placenta and other important parts to bring the baby to life. Every two weeks I had my prenatal check up , undergo a transV, and drink the prescriptions given by my OB.

As days and months passed by... My bump starts to show... I begin to wear loose clothes to be comfortable... I was adviced by my OB to take an off from work during my first trimester just to ensure that everything will go well... As of this very moment, everything is A - ok. In everything that I do, I try to be extra careful just to make sure that my pregnancy will be fine... Now I am 21 and 4 days on the way and I am feeling alright... Excited... Happy... I am still praying that everything will be as planned... Thank you Jesus for this another life that grows in my womb... I know that everything that I am and I am experiencing was because of you... God bless my baby!

Day 2 ... Feb 10, 2012 ...

Early as december 2011, I am planning to lose weight, take a an anti-obesity pill, and enrol to an aerobics class just getting ready to be pregnant again... I even googled some articles on fertility... I was not able to do things as planned. Maybe i am not ready to lose weight... I just can't.

When I woke up, a little bit early than usual, I remembered what my hubby told me the night before. I took a PT kit from the drawer and headed to the bathroom to get a sample of my morning mid stream pee. I followed the instruction at the back of my PT kit and after a few second it unveiled the result... My eyes were closed when i took the PT kit on my hand and i slowly opened my eyesto see the result. I do not expect anything... If it negative then its one of those days again... But when i opened my eyes I saw 2 lines... An indication of a positive result. I don't know how to react at that point... I can't believed that i am pregnant again after 2 years... So, I decided to have another test after 30 minutes and the result is still the same... Two pregnancy test show positive results... I am pregnant again! When my hubby woke up, i told him that his hunch was true... That i am pregnant again... His face went blank... I can't decipher his reaction... I know he is not ready... He just said that i should have a check up as soon as possible...

Day 1... Feb. 9, 2012...

Hubby and I have this ritual before going to sleep we had a short talk of what happened the whole day. Out of nowhere, he said that he thinks i am pregnant so I better take a home PT... I ignored it because it never came into my mind that i will be pregnant again at my age of 36. Well, the topic of being pregnant was ignored and was replaced by other topic... Then we went to sleep...

green-eyed...

It's the look... not the body language...

It might re-direct your thoughts...

It might put you powerless...

It might ruin the foundation...

Nevertheless, when you're blind...

It's pointless...

I trust but my heart pound...

I refuse to think but it keeps popping out...

I kept my eyes and ears open...

There's nothing I can see and hear but still ...

My imagination is so poisonous...

Day after day, it keeps on speculating...

Maybe this, maybe that...

What if this and what if that...

It keeps my head throbbing...

I don't want this! I yelled...

But still...my heart pounded...


Lub... dub... lub... dub...
lub ..dub..lub..dub..
lub. dub .lub .dub.
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looking forward...

what's in store for 2012?

1.  a beach lot... (already have someone look for an affordable lot)
2.  travel locally... (waiting for a promo sale then up we go...)
3.  have a baby... ( looking forward... )
4.  buy and sell business ( generic drugs, cars etc...)
5.  lose weight... ( kaya ko ba ito?   (KAKAYANIN!!!)