Just like old times...

There is no such things as a perfect married life... a perfect relationship... a perfect partner... a perfect you... none of it exist...

A perfect marriage is when both partners does not fight or argue... but that dont exist... married life will be boring if it wasnt for the arguements or simple misunderstandings... that will test your patience and love for each other...

Friends idolizes my husband and I's relationship... we are on our 13th year of marriage... in 2 months we will be 22 years together... 9 years bf/gf and 13 years of marriage.  Ours was not perfect. We fight, we argue, we shout at each other... sometimes he walks out, sometimes I leave just not to make our agruement long... because too many words spoken from the mouth during arguements will just make things worst.  Before the day ends, the fight will be changed to sorries, forgiveness and love... 

There is a saying... "the only permanent thing on earth is CHANGE...

Everything changes... your looks, your perception, your outlook in life, your maturity, the love changes.. some times you fall out of love or the love is gone... well,   i dont really believe that when you love somebody then after several years i just fade away or you fall out of love... I believe that when you love someone you love him or her forever... I just only depends on the intesity of the love or  what kind of love you have given the person.

I still love my husband up to now and until the very end... how much i love him? well, i love him to the moon and back... it is infinity... nothing compares my love for him... i just wish that he knows that!

Sometimes in a relationship there is a plateau... it stops there... for me, this is what you call the comfortable stage... when everything you do is ok .. "because i know my wife or husband understands"... "because we are used to it... " "kse hindi na uso yan... " " kse matatanda na kami"... but you know simple things like a kiss when you go home or when you are leaving for work is a big thing for me... a flower during valentines day makes me feel important... saying sweet nothings behind your ear makes me kilig... a date without the 2 kids reminice our college days... walking holding hands... i miss these things... yung pampakilig... 

Maybe we should renew our vows... i think this will help us bring back the value of our love... our relationship... medyo gigisingin ng konti... para kiligin ulit... because hindi naman siya nawawala o nababawasan... it's just in its plateau stage...           

I love you daddy... I love you very very very very very very very very very very very very very very much!!!  just like old times...

my 2nd...

How time flies... Last February, I discovered I was pregnant... Now, 1st of October it is... my 2nd child was born.  I was so happy... everybody was too!

Let me tell you my journey...

I, at the back of my mind wanted another baby.  So, I was planning to go on diet and have an exercise regimen.  This was deciphered in my mind early December of 2011.  But as days passed none of those two regimen were put to practice.  Well, anyway I still don't have the will power to do it.

Came February, my hubby told me that I might be pregnant.  So I took a PT kit and rest was history... the birds and the bees... hey I was pregnant!  I immediately went to my OBGYNE and I told her my pregnancy history... that I had 3 miscarriage after my first born... and i'm pregnant again... my 5th pregnancy at the age of 37.  She lay her cards... one day at a time, she said. My OB GYNE gave me medicines to keep my uterus strong... vitamins for the baby... and test to make me healthy for the baby.

After a 39 weeks my baby was born October 1, 2012 via ceasarian section because a meconium stain was seen when my water broke. She was named KAEYLA DJERDIN RAMIREZ DELOS REYES.  Her second name was a combination of the named of her 2 grandfathers... JER for Jeremias (My hubby's dad) and DIN from Dindo (My father's pet name).

My family is complete... I have a husband who I know loves me very much , a Son who is mabait and malambing, and now a daughter who I wish will grow up God fearing and very loving to her family.

Thank you God for all the blessings... thank you for my family... what more can I ask?

Girl or Boy ?

I will have my monthly OBGYNE checkup tomorrow... I will be having my biometry and if possible then the gender of my child will be revealed... Excited, yup I am... I want to know if it's a girl or boy... Actually this is only a confirmation... When I had my ultrasound last end of April, my doctor told me that it is a girl pero malabo pa yung ultrasound because the baby still is small. Now that I am entering my sixth month, the gender of my child can now be seen... If and only if my child wont hide it... So baby, let mommy know if you're a girl or a boy so I can prepare your things before you come out in this beautiful world...

How time flies...

When you view my previous blog... There was one titled " looking forward "... I made maybe 4 or 5 lists of what I look forward for 2012... One of which is trying to have a baby... Maybe God saw and read what I wrote... Maybe He evaluated my life and saw that I only have one child and that child wants to have a sibling... So that is why I am now 22 and a half weeks pregnant... That is almost 6 months... And that is why we are very happy and everybody is trying very hard to keep my pregnancy safe. This is due to my previous unfortunate experience... But I moved forward so this time it will be fine. Thank you Lord for this blessings... See you after nine months baby... That is 3 more months to go... Can't wait!!!

Fear factor...

I am almost on my 6th month of pregnancy... Some think that I am on the safer stage now. But still there is a fear inside me... I don't want to say it but I am nervous and a little bit worried everyday. What if this happen... What if I... Too many what ifs... When I wake up in the morning and before I go to sleep at night, I read the Bible and pray to thank the Lord for all the blessings and guidance for a safe And healthy pregnancy. Praying is a powerful tool to overcome this fear that I am feeling... To let go of all the worries that throb my head... And telling myself that everthing will be fine. Thank you Lord for each day...

Grade Four...

Yup my little boy is now a grade 4 student... Binata na... He is now wearing long pants, polo and necktie... A required uniform for the fourth graders... Eventhough it's just the first week of class, my kid has lots of assignments and requirements to bring for his class. I hope this year will be a great year for my little boy academically...

Day 3 ...

Day 3 was when we went to the hospital for our first prenatal check-up... We decided that if my cousin who is an OBGYNE was available then she will be my OB... but she was out of the country for a convention... so we decided to go to my 1st OBGYNE... Dra. Emma...

When I entered the hospital my heart pounded... excited, happy , nervous were the emotions I felt that time.   When my OB first checked on me, I told her my pregnancy history... she then wanted me to have an trans-vaginal ultrasound to know how many weeks is my pregnancy since I do not know my LMP (irregular kse eh). Yup! I was 4-1/2 weeks pregnant.  She then lay down the cards on me... the pros and cons... the advantages and disadvantages... the risks... this is because of my previous pregnancy history. She gave me prescriptions like, Utrogestan, progesterone vaginal gel, folic acid and aspirin (due to her suspicion of APAs). This was taken up to 3 months of pregnancy to help in formation of the placenta and other important parts to bring the baby to life. Every two weeks I had my prenatal check up , undergo a transV, and drink the prescriptions given by my OB.

As days and months passed by... My bump starts to show... I begin to wear loose clothes to be comfortable... I was adviced by my OB to take an off from work during my first trimester just to ensure that everything will go well... As of this very moment, everything is A - ok. In everything that I do, I try to be extra careful just to make sure that my pregnancy will be fine... Now I am 21 and 4 days on the way and I am feeling alright... Excited... Happy... I am still praying that everything will be as planned... Thank you Jesus for this another life that grows in my womb... I know that everything that I am and I am experiencing was because of you... God bless my baby!